First of all. I think too much.
I ponder all the time.
I'm an overdoer.
my dad is a horrible person.
one of the very few people I hate.
I dont really care if you hate me.
most likely its not my fault.
what you say doesn't matter.
because unless you're really close to me.
I wont care how much you bash me.
I'll be nice to you.
I've lost a lot of people throughout my life.
and I'm still not used to it.
I hate losing friends. yet it happens all the time.
I wont nag you for your own decisions.
Ive never been rich
or gorgeous..
or the best at anything
but I am still lucky
you may think you know my situations.
and say you know how i feel.
most like you dont.
I'm different than you.
trust me.
I dont do any of the things I do for you or anybody else.
I do what I'm interested in.
not trends.
if you dont like me.
Im sorry.
but I wont change.
if you do like me.
well good.
but it doesn't mean I will tell you things.
or get false hopes about being close.
I am intelligent.
so dont tell me otherwise.
I laugh at people who cut me down when they're losing a debate.
overall.
the main point is.
I'm not who you want me to be.
and thats okay.
cause I am who I want to be.